You all know I am a binge eater. And if you didn't, now you do. And with that, and my past, comes a slue of insecurity and fear and feelings of unworthiness.
I am working through it.
But I have fears.
What if I change? I mean I know I am going to change. I have changed. But what if I change a lot? What if I change so much that my friends don't like me anymore, or my husband doesn't love me? I know that sounds really stupid, and I have talked to him about it and he insists that I could never change so much that he wouldn't love me anymore.
And I believe him.
But I still worry about it.
And I worry about never actually reaching my goal. I don't know how to succeed. It's not something I have ever done because when I get too close, I sabotage myself. I am working past it, but it is something I know I do.
I am afraid of what will happen after I reach my goal. Will I gain it back? Will I be happy?
I don't let my fears overwhelm me, but they exist. They come out when I least expect it.
I know you know this, but I am not perfect. I have fears and insecurities and I am working on getting past them.
Basically what i am saying is that it's okay to have fears. And you aren't alone.