Living your life on the internet is kinda hard. Like most of you know, this isn't my first blog, but this blog experience has been completely different than my past experiences. For one, more people than just my grandma read it, but more than that I have never been as open as I have been on this blog. Which has presented some really intense moments for me. I think its been a huge growing experience being so raw, but it also has left me vulnerable in a few cases. Granted I wouldn't trade it for the world.
It has also introduced me to some of my best friends in the world, and some of the best acquaintances a girl could ask for. I have met so many incredible people and I can't say how thankful I am for it. You guys mean more to me than you know.
But back to my point, I think, like I mentioned on Monday, there can be some pressure to be perfect online. To wear the trendiest clothes, to take the best food pictures, to have the most interesting life, get the best fastest results, blah blah blah. And this pressure can lead people to do drastic things, like fabricate stories or photoshop their photos. I totally get it, because the pressure is real, but I can't imagine actually doing it.
The thing is, I am a terrible liar, and I am not organized enough to remember every detail of my lie, so I really don't do it in general. It never pays off, and its a pain in the ass to keep up with. My motto in life is "When in doubt, be yourself." For real tho, my senior year quote was "How could I have been anyone other than me?" which pretty much sums up my life, which is fancy since I chose it 10 years ago. Trying to be someone you aren't has got to be exhausting, and isn't life already hard enough? I can't imagine trying to be perfect, and I am okay with that.
I read a lot of blogs, and I stop reading a lot of blogs when I feel like the person behind the keyboard is being inauthentic. I love a little realness in the people I follow, ya know? Who can relate to someone who is perfect all.the.time. Granted, I am kind of a hot mess most of the time, but I own it. I think way less of us have our shit together than we pretend to on the internet amirite?
So I am gonna be over here, lovin on some dinosaurs and rhinos, bingewatching netflix shows, and dressing up as Katniss for a quiz and then a midnight showing of the Hunger Games, being me.
Take me or leave me, I am who I am.