Operation Skinny Jeans: The Struggle

Friday, August 15, 2014

The Struggle

As you all know, I have struggled a lot with my weight in the last year. At my highest in the last 12 months, I weighed 255, and at my lowest, 229. I am now in the low 240's, but thats not my exact point.

Weight loss is hard. Most of you know this. I just want to address the misconception that when you decide to lose weight, that it is going to be easy, consistent and immediate. Because its not. Weight loss is a process, and one that usually includes some gains along the way. Life happens, and just because if you zoom out if looks like you didn't lose any weight, know that it isn't telling the whole story.

There are a lot of things that can factor into this. For me, it has been having a tumultuous year. I would lose a lot, gain a little, lose some more, then something else would happen and I would gain it back. THIS is life. Is it awesome? No, not at all. And for most people, it's really discouraging. But you have to remember that this isn't a short term process. This is for the long haul. When I got into this, I knew my goal of losing 150 lbs wasn't going to happen over night. That is a FUCKTON of weight. Like an entire person. But I knew that if I didn't let minor set backs completely derail me that I could do it. I didn't set a time frame, I didn't want to do it unhealthily so I have been figuring things out as I go. 

And another thing, along those lines, I have had to figure this shit out as I went along! I have tried everything in the book to lose weight. Crash diets, clean eating, working out with a trainer, working out at home, running, yoga, etc. I have discovered a lot of things I like, a lot of things I don't, but I am still trying to figure out what will work for me long term. Sure I could stop eating all the carbs, but I don't want to lose 150 lbs, bring carbs back into my life and gain it all back. That is not my idea of success. 

This is one year of progress. If you go by the scale, I haven't lost much. But my body begs to differ. 

So if you are out there, struggling, looking at the same kind of graph that I am, you aren't alone. This shit is hard. But it doesn't get easier by giving up. So strap on your shoes and try again today. And tomorrow. And every day because success will come with consistency. Keep your head up- you will get there. 

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  1. You're right I managed to lose a stone ( 16 pounds or so) which was really hard and put it all back on them up and down with the same 10 pounds for months :/ It is hard!! but it'll be so worth it in the end for all of us! Your blog is brilliant :D really inspires me to try fitness blogging!

  2. This shit is hard! Don't give up because those moments that you realize how far you come are so worth it. They usually come for me when I am down about slow progress and they motivate me.

  3. This is a great example of how the scale is a liar and health>weight. Thanks for sharing!

  4. I see a huge change in your midsection! And you're right, it's hard. I'm in nursing school and my workout routine has definitely suffered since I started but that's ok, like you said this is a lifestyle and setbacks happen!

  5. I'm a slow and steady kind of girl. The up peeks on my chart make me mad. You got this girl!!

  6. This is great! My weight has been fluctuation a lot too but I feel like my body looks different? idk but this was a great post- you can do it!

  7. We all struggle and it so important to show the truth of what we go through. I am grateful for you honesty and your determined spirit. You look great and this is a good reminder that the scale isn't and shouldn't be everything.

  8. Thank you so much for this post, it eloquently says exactly what I feel, at my heaviest I was 20st 5lbs (285 lbs) and I am now down to 19st 1lb (267lbs) and losing those first 18lbs was so hard, but such a great feeling, its more than I have ever lost on a diet to date and I may be doing it slowly but I am also trying to do it smartly, only losing 2 or 3 lbs a week at most so that I don't pile it all back on again. There have been weeks where I have put a lb or so back on but I always know why (eg. that takeaway when I had a weak moment).

    I started my blog to try and push me to keep going, knowing that people would be reading (and probably secretly judging) if I just gave up! I am SOOO glad I have found this blog as it seems you are my american twin ;) The same issues and thoughts, I swear I am not a stalker but it's great to know that I am not alone!


    Jess - http://followingfordith.blogspot.co.uk/


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