But it is hard.
I used to be the person who quit. I gave up on my goals when things got tough or inconvenient or didn't go perfectly. I was that person. I can not even tell you how many times I have given up on my self. I literally thought I NEVER would get healthy. That my life was destined to be one of misery and discomfort, stuck in a body that didn't reflect my inner self and feeling lost and depressed.
When I started trying to lose weight last December (for the upteenth time), I expected myself to quit by spring. It was my cycle. I would commit in fall, quit by spring and gain it all back by fall just to start again. Never making progress, further perpetuating the idea that I CANNOT SUCCEED. It was in my blood. Failure for life.
Until December 2012. I started and I refused to stop. I decided right then and there that I was going to do this if it killed me. And it hasn't. And I am doing it. I believe in myself. I KNOW I can do anything I set my mind to. I have proven it time and time again.
But as a coach, I can't control how other people feel about themselves. I KNOW they can do anything they set their minds to, but they don't. I am learning I can only do so much. I can only encourage someone SO MUCH until they have to do it themselves. I can only be the voice in one of your ears telling you that you CAN succeed. And that is hard.
I hate watching people give up on themselves and their goals. This is not easy. In fact- losing weight is the hardest fucking thing I have ever done in my entire life. And some days, I want to quit. But I think about how far I have come, and why I am doing this in the first place, and how DISAPPOINTED I would be down the line if I just gave it all up, and I put down the cookie. I have something to FIGHT FOR. It's ME.
And I can't be the only person fighting for you. You have to fight for yourself.
And that is hard for me. I care so so deeply for other people that when they give up, it crushes me. I am trying not to take it personally, because really its not my fault. But I can't help but feel a sense of loss when someone I care about gives up on their goals.
So I want to impart all of you with this. And I want you to know that I am rooting for you.
You are worth it. #nevergiveup