I hate it.
|I just made this lol|
I was a Girl Scout during one of the hardest times of my childhood. I will spare you the play by play, but my binge eating was born around that time, and something I could hide well enough to binge on was Girl Scout cookies. This continued annually from about age 6 till age 25. I would procure cookies secretly (legally) and sneak them into somewhere private, and eat all of them in one sitting.
It became so bad that I would drive from grocery store to grocery store LOOKING for the scouts so I could buy a box or 4 and eat all of them before I got home.
In years past, I have allowed myself to eat the cookies, feigning "moderation" and every time it would end with me sitting on the bathroom floor with thin mints shoved into my face as I weep silently as to not get caught.
So this year I decided no. I can't do it yet. So I am not even going to have one. Last week we drove up to the grocery store and into the parking lot, and I saw them there outside the store. I told Andy to keep going, that we would go to a different store. I know that sounds stupid, but as a former scout (and former leader) I literally can not say no to the girls. And before you call me a jerk for not at least donating money, I do donate money, just not to the girls with the cookies accosting me outside the grocery store. Because I will take a box and, well you know how that would end.
So for this year I am just saying no. or walking away without making eye contact.
Are there any foods that are like insta-triggers for you? My husband said that I can't eat just one serving of Girl Scout Cookies because to me a whole box is one serving. #truethat