What's my motivation?
To answer that question, I need to tell you what it isnt. For a very long time (read: over 4 years) I thought my motivation was other things. First it was to fit into a wedding dress. Then it was to look good for our honeymoon, then it was for my 25th Birthday, then to get my body in shape to have a baby. My point is, these were all things with a deadline. These were all THINGS. They were fleeting and not REALLY that motivating. Sure I wanted to look amazing in my wedding dress, but not enough to change my life. Sure it would have been nice to be skinny on my honeymoon, but it didn't move me enough to make me wake up and work out.
Case in point. Here I am on my wedding day:
The time passed. The milestones came and went. And I was STILL 285 lbs. I had "tried" to lose weight for ALL of these things, but look where that got me. Nowhere. And sad. And with a sense that I COULDN'T lose weight.
Then one day something changed. I can remember the exact moment. I looked in the mirror at my naked, fat body and I started crying. Why was I doing this to myself? Why was I living like this? Why didn't I deserve to be fit and happy? And I realized I did. I did deserve it. But no one owed it to me. No one was going to do it for me. I knew the time would pass, it already had. I realized in that moment that I was worthy of success. I knew I had to work for it, and HARD, but I deserved it.
So now I finally have an answer to your question. My motivation is ME. I am WORTH it. I am beautiful and I deserve to feel healthy and happy and wear a bikini and skinny jeans and run a marathon because I deserve it! It isnt easy. It isnt fast. But it is worth it because I am worth it.
And so are you.
That, is what I can give you.
Look at your naked body in the mirror and ask yourself WHY. Why are you doing this to yourself? Why are you living like this? Why don't you deserve to be fit and happy?
You know what? You do. You are worth it.