Operation Skinny Jeans: Skinny Jean Fit Camp Recap

Monday, October 7, 2013

Skinny Jean Fit Camp Recap

Before I get ahead of myself, Ash from A Step in the Right Direction and my DietBet starts today!!! I weighed in at 246.7 and I have to lose 10.5 lbs to win. It's not too late to join us! The pot is already over $300 (and growing)! Join here!


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I can't believe it's already October, but it is, and Skinny Jean Fit Camp is over. It was fun and some awesome ladies did really awesome! Here are some before and afters!




(top photos are her starting pics, middle are pre-fit camp)



These ladies did awesome! Now how did I do? Well, I gained 2 lbs. yep, in the last 10 weeks, not only did I not lose, I gained. I did, however, have a revelation.

I stopped focusing on me. No blame on the blog, but I have put all of you amazing people first. It started with the 10 week challenge, which was supposed to be a way for a friend and I to focus and really kick ass for 10 weeks before various events in our lives. But I wrote about it and it just BLEW UP. It went from a declaration of my intent to go balls to the wall, to a 200 person challenge in which I had to keep you all occupied and focused, so I didn't focus on myself at all. I didn't lose during that challenge either.

So after that, I had a ton of people begging for me to do another one. I changed the rules, in the hopes of being able to focus with a smaller group of people, and by adding two other people to the team. If I am being honest, it all went to hell. The two people that signed up to help didn't help as much as I had hoped, and I continued to hide behind the role as leader, and completely failed to work on myself at all.

There is only one person to blame, and that is myself.

I have always put other people first. Doing that is what got me to 285 lbs. I just fell back into that role through these challenges because it is comfortable for me. Well guess what! Change doesn't happen in your comfort zone.

So it is with a heavy heart that I have to say that Skinny Jean Fit Camp will not be back. Not right now at least. I need some time to focus on JUST me. And it is so hard to say that. I WANT to help people. But I NEED to help myself. I haven't lost weight in 4 months. That is 100% because I haven't put myself first. It is time to change that.

I still care about all of you, and I still want to know how you are doing and you can still email me for anything, I just need to do this for me.


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3 comments :

  1. I'm proud of you, Jess! You deserve to be happy and to see the results that you are looking for. Time to focus on you and work on your goal that you have already worked so hard towards! Let's go! <3

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  2. I am the SAME way. I always always always will focus on everyone else but myself. But recently I've realized that the only advocate I have for my health is me. And I'm really going to try and try to lose the weight for good!!! Good luck girl :-)

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  3. Hi Jess! I've been following your blog for a couple months now and think I'll join your diet bet, so I just thought I would introduce myself :) I'm Casey and I blog at http://reallifemrsrobinson.blogspot.com but am terrible at updating. I would love to get better at that and be a real blogger, but for now I'm just happily following you and other fun bloggers and posting periodically. I'm working on losing the 50 + lbs I gained in grad school, along with getting my life together in other ways. Anyway, thanks for all the great posts and the diet bet. I'll join today :)

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