Operation Skinny Jeans: These are my Confessions...

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

These are my Confessions...

Just when I thought I said all I could say, my chick on the side said she got one on the way.  No wait… those are Usher's Confessions….

:)

Anyhoo, back to my confessions.

My name is Jess and I have a crappy relationship with food. It's true.

I use food to entertain me when I am bored.

I use food to make me feel better when I am sad or stressed.

I eat food in secret, afraid of being judged.

I binge when I am emotional.

I eat beyond the point of fullness, even past discomfort.

When food tastes really good, I don't know how to stop.

I know these things about myself, and I fight every single day to not do them anymore. I am in recovery and working through my problems every day, but that doesn't mean they will go away. They are a part of me.

But I am stronger than these things. I am learning more about myself and my body, and my strength every day.

When I am bored, I blog, or read a book.

When I am sad or stressed, I take a walk, or call a friend.

When I want something, I have it. I don't have to hide it, and I eat much less of it.

When I am emotional, I cry, and that's okay.

When I can't seem to stop, I walk away.

I am learning how to manage the internal side of my problem. I obviously didn't get to 285 pounds because I am lazy and really really like cake (although both are true). People who have never struggled with this don't understand that obesity isn't just about food, it's about your brain. You have to work on both to make it work, and you will have to work on both every single day to make it keep working. It's hard, sure, but hard things make you stronger.

Do you have a bad relationship with food? Does your chick on the side have one on the way? What's your confession?


2 comments :

  1. Well you definitely won me over with the Usher tribute. Love him and although that song reminds me of 8th grade church dances where I swayed awkwardly by myself.. I love it! I can relate with a lot of these confessions..especially eating! Food is my best friend...and my enemy! Ha!

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  2. First, that first line cracked me up way to much! lol second I am right there with you on secret/hiding eating. Which I think attributes to eating too much. I think a little social accountability helps me eat in proportion. No more hiding food! lol

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