Operation Skinny Jeans

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Let it go.

Dreams are funny. They start as just an ache in your stomach. An inkling that you can't ignore. You have no idea where they will take you, but you keep putting one foot in front of the other, sometimes blindly, just following an invisible path hoping it will take you somewhere. 

This has been an incredible dream. I started Operation Skinny Jeans after quitting blogging "for good". It grew unlike anything I had ever done, and has given me the most incredible opportunities I never imagined possible. I have met hundreds of the most courageous, wonderful, inspiring women and I wouldn't trade that for the world. I have had the opportunity to share my story on the local news, and with more people than went to my university. 

I can't even put into words how thankful I am that people like you took time out of your day to read what I wrote. 

But it's time to let it go. 

It's funny how life changes SO dramatically so quickly sometimes. It really helps you put things into perspective. I am so blessed that so many wonderful things have come into my life at one time. I have a job I adore, in a field that fascinates me, something I have never had before. I have reconnected with my estranged family, an action that has fulfilled me more than I ever imagined. 2015 is going to be an amazing year, and that is without Operation Skinny Jeans. 

My health and fitness will continue to be a big part of my life. I am working on a relationship with activity and food that feeds my soul, not my followers. 

I am so thankful for your support over the last few years. I wish I could tell you all personally. 

I hope you all have a spectacular life, and thanks for all the fish! ;) 


Wednesday, January 21, 2015

New Year, New Me?

I love that at the beginning of the year everyone is motivated to finally get serious about their health. People buy gym memberships, they buy fresh groceries, do things like the Whole 30 and go all in with their health. They find a quote on Pinterest that says "New year, new me!" And post it everywhere. I wish we could harness that raw motivation and drive and feed off it all year! 

But then a few weeks pass, and we find ourselves falling into the same habits as before. 5 am is really early, so we snooze the alarm. We forgot to prep so we go out to lunch with coworkers "just this once". We all have great intentions, but a large group of people find themselves back at square one by early February. 

I have been wondering about this phenomenon I keep seeing, year after year, and I think I finally get why this happens. Sure, it's a new year, but you are the same old you. The moment Ryan Seacrest said "Happy New Year!" you didn't change, did you? You woke up on January 1st as the same you that went to bed drunk the night before. You may have new drive and new motivation, but you are the same you. 

So what can we do? How can we turn our new drive into long term motivation? It's actually pretty simple. 

Find your why. 

The excitement and push of the new year can only get you so far before you lose sight of why you started. Deciding to change your life isn't easy, and having a deep, personal reason why you want to change will keep you going when you feel like you can't go any further. 

Really dig deep. I have tried losing weight for an event, a dress, for well-meaning family members, but none of them stuck because I didn't have anything strong enough to keep me motivated when things got hard. It wasn't until I sat down and asked myself the hard question, why I wanted to lose weight, that I decided that it was for me.

All my life, I struggled with self-esteem issues, my eating disorder, and feeling like I had very little self-worth. It wasn't until I decided that I was worth feeling great about myself and looking great that I decided to try to lose weight for me. When I found myself getting back into those habits, of self hate and self-loathing, I would look in the mirror and remind myself that I am worth it.

Find your why. 

Just because it's a new year doesn't mean you have changed. But harness that energy and drive and find something in your life that will keep you going, even through the hard parts. 

Monday, January 19, 2015

Aaaaand I'm back

Well, I finally downloaded the blogger app. I haven't been able to find the time to sit down at my laptop so I figured this would make me pick it back up again. 

This year has been pretty crazy so far. I started my new job on January 2nd and it's going great! But getting into a new routine has been my new mission. I got really comfortable with working out at 9 am, taking a nice work break, but now that's not really an option. I am going through the 5 stages of grief and am currently in denial that I am gonna have to wake up at 5 am to get it in ;) But I am doing well with food at work! I bought a lot of fruit, veggies, and healthy foods to eat at work, and I scoped out a loop I can walk to get my blood flowing. 

Overall this is such a positive change in our lives, and I am really glad to be working outside of my home again. Sometimes you just need to see other people that aren't your dog... ;) 

My goal this week is to get back in the habit of posting. Wish me luck. 

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Keep moving forward

It is really easy to look at the last year and be disappointed. Maybe you didn't do everything you wanted to. Maybe you didn't hit those crazy goals you set. Maybe you are almost the same weight you started the year at (like me).

It is really easy to get caught up in being disappointed in what you didn't do.

Here is a fun fact about me. One of my favorite movies of all time is Meet the Robinson's. It is a really under appreciated Disney movie that is both hysterical and full of great lessons. One of the best lessons on the movie is Keep Moving Forward. Whether your invention didn't work out as planned, or whatever goal you didn't quite make, keep moving forward.

Sure, it's good to learn from the past, and look back and reflect on how your choices can be improved, but dwelling on the past, feeling disappointed and letting that rule you will get you nowhere. Keep your eyes on the future and remember that every day is a brand new day.

I am choosing to learn from my setbacks and keep moving forward.

And I am totally gonna watch that movie now...

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Monday, December 29, 2014

Holy New Year

I swear I feel like this every year, but the end of the year just FLIES by. It's like it's Halloween then BAM it's new years eve. Just me?

I have been thinking a lot about next year, and setting some goals, and really where I want to focus my energy. 2014 was kind of a wash. I mean I learned a lot about myself, and went through a lot of life changes, but I am ending it just about the same weight I started it, which is what it is. I know why, I have talked about why, no need to rehash it now.

But I am entering 2015 with a lot more knowledge about myself. I know what works for me, I know what makes me feel good, and I have realized that that, above anything else, is what is important to me right now. I don't want to be a bikini competitor. I don't want to run a half marathon. I don't want to do anything huge and life changing with 2015, I just want to be happy. Eating right makes me happy. Working out makes me happy (which is something I never thought I would say ever). Treating my body with respect makes me happy, and I think THAT has been my biggest take away from 2014.

I think there is a lot of pressure around the new year to set goals that scare you. I have tried that (hello, half marathon??) and I realized it didn't work for me. It scared me too much, so much that it scared me into inaction. It didn't motivate me, it immobilized me, and I know that now. I know this is going to be my best year yet because I have learned so much about myself.

So what can you expect in 2015? Consistency. Determination. Completely boring, not spectacular goals, and lots of em.

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Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Happy Holidays!

This is me signing off for the rest of the week. This time of the year is CRAZY and I love it! I can't wait for the whirlwind of family time and delicious food.

I will still be working out daily, as I have been, with less selfies because who has time for a selfie EVERY time the workout. I encourage you to not lose momentum this week too! I know it seems like a great week to stop working out or to abandon all hope of good eating but you can have your cake and eat it too with some mindfulness and portion control. And try to move your body at least 30 minutes every day (even if its just a walk around the block) to help you fee great!

Have a spectacular holiday. Enjoy yourselves, and hug your families tight. I will see you all next week!

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Monday, December 22, 2014

Holiday Dresses

So if you remember from last year, every year my husband's work holds a fancy holiday party. I love it because its a chance to wear a pretty dress and feel like a grown up. I loved my dress last year (minus it's slightly revealing neck line) but I am feeling something different this year. Its such a special occasion I don't even mind buying new dress each year :D

I was looking on Modcloth and fell in LOVE with their party dresses! I don't love that I can't try it on first, but I know what cuts look good on me, so I am gonna go with it. The party isn't until the middle of January, so I have some time to find something perfect.

I know I want something cocktail length, and I think I want neutral colors, like black, white or gold. But I have found a few pretty dresses that are colorful, so who knows.

Here are my favorites!

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I am really in love with the black and gold polka dots, but I also love the easy flowiness of the other three. I will keep looking around, but these are at the top of my list. 

Which one is your favorite? Do you ever dress up for a holiday party? Isn't it fun! 

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